How can I defined him? Hmmm He just someone that appear in my life like dreams.
He just came, then leave.
That moment I met him, I was so nervous. Was he going to accept me for who I am? I may not know what kind of person he is actually. But for sure, I know him from his own bestfriend. His bestfriend was my bestfriend too. Hmmm okay, back to the story.
I spent my time with him that night. Laugh all time, making jokes for each others, hug, kisses. I just miss all those moments. That moment he left, I always hope that we will meet again.
But things don't always go on just like what we hoping for.
Suddenly, his girl come up and put blame on me. Yes, I was wrong. I shouldn't falled for someone boyfriend. Eventhough I know he have girlfriends, I don't care. A long he with me. I will be happy.

But, without reason, he left. Just like that.

Does he know I much my hear hurt? Does he know how I'm going through all this without him. He used to came to me and give me hope, teached me how to smile and laugh again. But that just temporary. My heart break into pieces. I don't think I can out them all together again.
Day by day, I try to forget him. ut the more I try to forget, the more he get through my mind. He live there.
Its not over yet. Then, one day, his bestfriend come to me and said that he betrayed him.
Why? Why? Why? Why you must having relationship with your won bestfriend crush? You should learn how to respet your friend atleast?

Then, even you're already ask for forgiveness, why he still not leaving that girl?
Its just like you're stab someone from back, you apologize, but you left the knife at that someone back.
It will still hurt even how much you ask for apologize. Don't know know how stupid you're Alif Fikri?

Hmmm I try my best to make you guys back tgether and be friend again. I try again and again, but nothing seems like working. It was so frusturated. But I pretend like I am strong.
Yes, in the middle of all this. I act like I'm okay. But truthly, I'm dying inside. I don't know where did my heart go. I feel like heartless after all these problem.

I'm dying for missing him so much. I hate for what he doing now, but Ican't hate him at all.
I think of him everytime. I don't show, but I do feel like missing someone that really important.
I been thinking of. What will happen to us one day.

I just want to say that I really love him. But Me and him.. It can't be now.