Assalamualaikum, it been a long time since I don't write here. Been so busy lately. And I just recover from my heart breaks because of a guy. Okay this is Ilman Hamizan. H'es my friend from last year. We're a really good friends, meet once as a friend but one day, I confess to him that I like him. Yes, I really do.
But now I really love him.
So much.
We meet a few times, sharing all things together. I even have meet with his friends. And seriously when ever I met him, I feel very nervous, and when we are going to say goodbye, I was very sad.
Ilman Hamizan. He's someone that truly and really understand me. He took care of me so well, he love me for who and what I am, he always patient with my silliness, my ego. He's so perfect in my eyes. But me, I still being so cruel, so ego and I can't even controlled them. My ego always ruined everything.
I used to be a girl who so easy going, have many boy friends, but because of him, I changes everything, I changes my attitude, my association, but still I can't stop to be ego.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry if my words always hurt you, my act always annoyed yo, my ego always make you upset. I never mean to hurt you and please, don't ever think what I am in future because I don't live there anymore.
Because now.
I only have you. I only see you. Even I will say that I saw many handsome and cool guys, I still see you. You're still there in my heart. And, I really hope that you're feel the same things too. You're think about the same thing too.
To me, when you're jealous, not allowed me to meet guy, meet my ex's and so on, its not that you're controlling me. It is because you're afraid of losing me, you're protecting me and our relationship. I really understand that, I really understand how do you feel. But I'm sorry that I really don't know how to show it.
Thanks.
Thank you for take care of me, thank you for loving me, thank you to treat me so well, thank you for acepting my love, thank you for giving me some place in your heart, thank you for all your sacrifies. Thank you for everything.
You're my everything. Without you, I am nothing.
So, please.
Don't leave.
